It has been a little over a year since I started this blog. Looking back at things, I am not sure how far I have come. I still feel uncertain, my work is as imperfect as it used to be (so is my English! :-)), but I keep on creating. I might have skipped a week here and there, but I managed the time to draw. Isn’t that good? Well, for me it is!

In the next posts, I will try to recap a couple of thoughts/feelings that went round and round in my mind during the past months. First of them is…

Uncertainty: “Situation where the current state of knowledge is such that (1) the order or nature of things is unknown, (2) the consequences, extent, or magnitude of circumstances, conditions, or events is unpredictable, and (3) credible probabilities to possible outcomes cannot be assigned. Although too much uncertainty is undesirable, manageable uncertainty provides the freedom to make creative decisions. See also risk.”

In one of my first posts, I wrote about the white page syndrome and how the inkblot technique helped me out. I am not intimidated anymore in front of a blank sheet, but I am still not sure if what I draw is “me”. The closest I felt to this was with the inkblots. No need to think; just let go, observe and adjust. But I needed to go beyond this, in places less comfortable.

I envy those artists whose work you see and you can always say it came from them. I do not feel like I am there yet.

Or maybe “me” is an eternal explorer? Is that so bad?

So uncertain… :-)